Meaningful discussions …

By Elle, StilettoWheels & PlusBlack, April 17, 2015

How boring are recurring health issues?  Just dull as ditch water, to my mind.

When you have chronic illnesses, health related problems do tend to recur but, no, I don’t want to talk about them.

Yes, this may cause me to feel pain, anger, frustration and many other things but, no, I don’t want to discuss my ‘feelings’ …

You, as a bystander, may find my poor health of interest, maybe even be concerned for me but, sadly, no, I genuinely couldn’t be less interested in discussing my illness-related symptoms.

Used to my own poor health, I have reached a plateau of truly-don’t-give-a-shit, just make me laugh about anything else, please.

But, everyone I know, except D – who is broadly in the don’t-give-a-shit mode with me – seems to find this odd.

NOT WHEN YOU’VE LIVED WITH IT FOR 17 YEARS!

Trust me.  I have spent so much time in hospitals, talking to medics, dealing with ghastly physical consequences that I am numb to it all … and bored.

So, even when I have erupting volcanic cancerous sores visible on my face – lovely image, right? And, yes, as bad as it sounds – I do not want to talk about it, the only feelings I want to express are of the four letter variety and I do still want to have fun.  Ditto for neurological relapses.

If I feel bad, you will not see or hear from me and, if you need to visit my home during these periods, I will not appreciate a running commentary on how I look or be responsive to silly questions like, ‘does it hurt?’

If I want to tell you, I will but, generally, talking about miserable things makes me miserable and I just don’t do it.

So, suck it up, people, because if I can deal with it, quietly and without a fuss, so can you.  Peace is what I need, and laughs.  Meaningful discussions on my dismal health?  Not so much, thanks.